You read that correctly, I am now overthrowing the government that is me. The regime that has been in place has let the country fall into disrepair. Enough is enough, I am tired of the establishment making little to no effort to fix what is wrong. We can all see it, other nations look at us and scoff. We need to take back what's ours and fix what's wrong with this great nation of Josh.
If you know me, you know I am a large fellow. Screw it I wont beat around the bush about it I am fat. Doctors would say obese and who am I to argue with a doctor? I have let myself go for a number of reasons, which I am sure I will delve into as I write this. I am not going to hide behind falsehoods and layers anymore. I need to make a change, not for anyone else but for myself. I want to look into the mirror and not sigh with frustration about the person that I have become. I want to be able to buy clothes without almost crying since nothing that is "my size" fits. I want to go out again, I have been single for so long because I don't like myself enough to try. People try and set me up from time to time but how can I expect anyone to like me when frankly I hate myself.
I am not writing this as a plea for sympathy or help, I am writing this to share my story of change. The struggles I will endure trying to ultimately change the person I have become over the last twenty eight years. If you like what you read support is always appreciated. It will be an uphill battle for sure but thankfully through countless internet searches and things I have read, I have a decent understanding of ways to be better. I know the problems that I have with weight, the main causes for my fatness. I just need to actually do something about it. First step was talking to people I knew personally about it and hearing myself talk about my habits disgusted me to no end. What normal people would cook to feed a few people would just be a meal to me and that's fucking depressing to know I do that and still do it.
The biggest hurdle I will face right out of the metaphorical gate is saying no to soda. I drink so much soda, that i am surprised I don't have any medical problems. I have been cursed by my thirst for the stuff since I was younger back then my folks used to hide 12 packs in the house and my fat ass would hunt them down like a caffeine blood hound. Now that I am an adult and live alone the amount I consume is worse now than ever 12 packs do not last long in my house. Which when you figure in I live alone it's worse. When you actually sit down as I have and think about it, ingesting a days worth of calories in soda alone is shameful. I am certainly not proud of my consumption and that is one thing I look to change first.
Second big one is an exercise routine, a while back on my other blog I wrote about me trying Zumba and enjoying it. I will be starting that again, as when I did it for a week I lost 9 pounds and felt really good. Trying to figure out why I stopped is something I still haven't uncovered. If I can work in some Zumba every day or every other day I will hopefully start to feel better about myself and in turn keep doing it. I still know the moves and tried to show some of the girls at work how to, the stuff is still fun and doing an hour a day is really easy. I need to get off my ass and do that, they have a message preach of "not having to be great at the start, but you have to start to be great". I need to start because I mean I am great just have to get the rest of me in line with everything else.
So there you have it strangers and friends alike welcome to the revolution, down with fat government, we demand a better establishment and by the power I can muster I will strive to do that for myself and my people. Viva La Revolution!
Goal for today, when I get off pop on Zumba and do that for about an hour or so. Until next time.....
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